Life is what you make it. And today life is well, unfair. I’ve been working so hard on my painting since the morning today. This was the first time I tried oil painting. Everything was going great until I started to work on the darn sky! Damn it! Now its all messed up, and here I am waiting for the paint to dry in hope that I’d be able to fix the darn thing. But I’ve started my blog quiet wrong. To be honest life isn’t unfair, you are unfair to yourself. I worked hard on my painting and yes I screwed up but you can’t blame life for that, I mean that’s part of life, isn’t it? Messing things up, fixing others. I’m just being hard on myself, OK its screwed up but you know what, lets move on with your life and start another one. The biggest failure would be not to try again, which obviously isn’t an option for me. I’m gonna go at it tomorrow again stroking that brush across the canvas, using fingers, thumbs, whatever it takes, but making it work! After all as Ralph Waldo Emerson puts it “Every artist was first an amateur.” I think its safe to say, mistakes aren’t that much of a big deal, how you overcome those mistakes holds more of a greater importance. After all, that is exactly what makes you or breaks you.
So I’ve been a little away from this. I get it. I mean comeeee on’ it happens to the best of us. Life does hit us in the face at times and one can easily get distracted from it. Not much as changed, ok maybe a little. But im starting to like this change in me. I have this weird artistic feeling inside that I just want to let out. After such a long time, I feel like the “old” me again. It honestly feels great. I’m just thinking of finally getting a canvas today and letting my creativity flow. I have no idea what I wanna paint at the moment. But that painting feeling is killing me inside. I need to get it out. ART STORE here i come!
I guess this is my first blog, ever. And at the moment I’m not really sure of how this thing works, but I guess eventually I’ll figure it out. The point of my blog is not necessarily to write reviews, or rant about someone. I figured I needed to step back a little bit from the worldly activities and really revamp my life. Like others, I myself have made some mistakes in life, and if I could I would turn back time to change what has really affected my future. But I can’t, having said that here I am today behind my MacBook Pro trying to figure out a way to reflect on my mistakes or perhaps keep myself busy. This summer is all about kicking back on some “me” time. Don’t really have another option, at this point of time I’m just left alone.